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Tats, Good Friends and Writing…

So, above you can see my two latest tattoos. I call them my zombknee’s. Mind you, they are still in their icky stage, right before the peel. Today, all I can say is ‘itch, itch, itch’ and ‘moisturize, moisturize, moisturize’. They itch so badly. And I had to wear pants today instead of my usual shorts because I had to adult.

 

However, when adulting, someone needs to speak up and remind me that that doesn’t mean I can get away with wearing a white shirt. Yes, said shirt now has a food stain on it. ~facepalms~ What makes it so irritating is that it was my final bite…right before I put my left overs in the to-go boxes. ~cries~

 

Said food stain came from an awesome afternoon with a wonderful friend. I had met her online years ago on the NaNoWriMo website Regional Forums. We didn’t meet face to face until the next year when I volunteered to be a Municipal Liaison. Since then, we have met, had Write-Ins and enjoy nice little sneak away lunches just the two of us.

 

We usually indulge in an Indian food place down in Dothan. I don’t think anyone else in my house enjoys it, so it works for me for getting a little variety. Today I actually tried a different appetizer and entrée. Go me for trying new things!!

 

Today I tried the vegetable fritters with two different chutney sauces, and my entrée was Butter Chicken. I usually have Samosas and Beef Biryani. I was pleasantly surprised with my choice. And my friend really helped me a lot, because decisions are not an easy thing for me when trying new things. She knows what is what, how spicy I should go, and explained what true Indian curry was. It was great. And we had great conversation. Always a good time with her, and hopefully she will be able to get back to her writing for NaNoWriMo. We both have been feeling the lulls in our work.

 

I am undecided on what I am working on for NaNoWriMo this year. When updating my novel page on the website, I placed up a book series I have in my head. Its erotica. Now, however, I am leaning toward a short story compilation of brand new stories. I love doing compilations. My only issue is sometimes I get sidetracked and my theme goes off the rails. I want to do a horror/thriller compilation. I have a ton of good ideas for that in my head, and it may be easier for me to focus on several smaller chunk stories than working on what will become a series of books.

 

Decisions, decisions.

 

Well, that’s all for now, darlings…be sweet!


A Bad Day…

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Well, this will be a short post. Just an update on my dreadful day.

We started with excruciating pain in the damaged nerves of my lower spine. It was like someone was plucking each one of them, and it reverberated all the way up my spine and down my left leg. It caused a jerking action, like I was having a seizure. I took my hydrocodone and my anti-inflamitories and relaxers. No relief. And I didn’t want to over medicate myself, because I am still fighting a cold.

So I tried to sleep through it.

Late morning everyone, including myself, gets up because it’s blazingly hot in the house. The thermostat was set at 65, the temp was 90, and it was 97 outside. My house turned into a sauna. So we get the heating/cooling people out. He does a quick fix to get us through the night, but has to come back in the morning to replace 2 parts.

So…that was my day.

And it is 9:30 and I’ve had no dinner yet…add to cranky factor.

 

I hope you all had a much better day than myself, and here to tomorrow being better!

Be sweet, my darlings!


Awake in the Sleeping World

It is not out of the ordinary to be awake when everyone I know is sleeping soundly, as they should be. Tonight, however, my back pain is not giving me that pleasure. And it’s not just my back, it goes down to my left leg, leaving it useless. I can only lift that leg so high before my body say ‘oh, no, you better check yourself missy!’

The problem doesn’t stop there, either. Due to the nerve damaged in my nerves in my lower back, I tend to lean on my right leg more, sending that knee into fits of pain. My cats like to sleep near my knees, keeping constant pressure there.

I don’t like to fall back on taking my Hydrocodone very often. I did take one when I took my night time meds to get to sleep, but, they have worn off and here I sit.

Next month, I restart pool therapy, which I really love. It will be in a difference place than I had gone to before. It sounds amazing from what I have researched on the place. Stationary bike IN the pool, aquarobics, and hat is Monday, Wednesday and Friday. When I feel I have outgrown the training there, I can move into the move advanced, harder workout they hold Tuesday and Thursday. This classes are an hour and a half long.

This place has even combined Zoomba and aquarobics. They say it is very, very strong stuff. And with my disability, I may not be able to perform it.

I am looking forward to just the general pool therapy, and the man-child will be coming with me to help get his knee back in condition since his surgery. In another 6 months, he will be eligible for a partial knee replacement, which his doctor said will indeed happened, because his knee is kaput, but just like me, he has to jump through those insurance loops and hoops.

I was getting spinal injection in my lower spine for my nerve damage pain, but the insurance will only allow so many over the course of 12 months. So my family doctor is helping me manage my pain with the Hydrocodone.

As it is almost 2am, and this is a pretty often occurrence for me, I usually have something to do. Book to read, movie to watch…but tonight, I seem too tired to do any of those. I want to close my eyes and sleep again, but, I know I will be trudging my way down the hallway in another hour again, so why bother.

The cats are playing with their newest toy, so I may let them entertain me. That’s something I never consider as time wasted.

So I will be signing off for now. I suspect I will post again sometime during the daylight hours.

 

Happy Dreaming ~


November 2016 Day 18

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I’m sitting in the library with my small group of Wrimos. Only 2 so far. One I am really glad is here because she hasn’t been able to make it to any of the other events, so this is great to see here again. We had met at last year’s events. Wonderful young woman.

 

I’m still in pain, but I took my stupid pills, and that was sort of a no-no. I didn’t realize just how stupid these pills make me until I got in the truck with all my NaNo supplies and started driving. Ugh.

 

So now I am just coping with the pain until the event is over and I get home. I brought the pills with me though, just in case.

 

I’m happy to say that I sent a proposal to the library system on holding Creative Writing Seminars, to include just what NaNoWriMo and things like BlogHer challenges are all about.

 

They accepted my proposal, so we will be doing on every other month starting in January leading up to NaNoWriMo. I’m so excited, and nervous. This is stepping way out of my comfort zone, but it’s something I am passionate about. And I have so many people supporting me and cheering me on, it’s wonderful.

 

So, let’s move on to the BlogHer Prompt
Nov. 18: What’s the dumbest thing you and a partner have ever fought about?

 

Where do I even start? We have fought about colors, choosing meat, how to properly crack an egg, hand-mixing vs. an electric mixer.

 

We have fought about so man stupid little things its unreal. And I don’t entertain it for long. After trying to even get him to see things from my side, which he believes his side is the only side, I turn around and head to my office, leaving warning that anyone that dares enter with be beheaded with one of my lovely swords. Worse yet, I’ll sic my cats on them. 😀

 

A short one today, I know, and I’m sorry. I have a near infinite supply of dumb fights, but honestly, I don’t like to give out that much of my person froo froo romantic life side. Nice thing about not being married…you can get out of a relationship that is getting toxic. However, this man in my life is great, he’s just him, and I’m just me. He calls me a ‘mean-ass’ and I tell him to grow some balls from time to time. Typical relationship stuff, yes?

 

Be sweet, my lovelies…


Joys and Woes of NaNoWriMo

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This years NaNoWriMo is really getting into the prep time. A lot of hype and well wishing, a lot of encouragement.

This year marks my second year as a Municipal Liaison. I LOVE IT! We all know I suffer from social anxiety. Well, working with the public on NaNo steps things in another direction. Since we hold most events between two libraries, they are controlled enviorments. No loudness, no craziness (besides my own) and its just plain fun to sit around with other authors, both young and old, answering questions, giving advice, listening to plots being thought out and bounced around for the input of others…it is just great.

 

Now, the down side. I have so wanted to get to the NOWD for two years now.

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I’m NOT going to make it again this year. I have resigned myself to that. No one is donating, and, as time grows closer, the airfare and hotel accomodations just get higher and higher.

So, I’ll keep my fundraising page up, just to see if I can help the NaNo cause more, but dreams of actually making it are kapoot.

Next year, hopefully things will be different.

 

As for this year, working with the librariy directors, I think we’ll have a better turn out of writers. We are advertising early, getting the word out, making so everyone with questions gets them answered well before signing up and commiting to the event

I have put together two prize bags for the two highest word counts. General book on writing, plotting, planning, editing and so one. And hot chocolate. Yums.

So, local NaNo is a go!!

 


Busy Little Bee

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So, I’ve been quite busy lately.

 

I have taken a collection of short stories that arent not in my normal horror genre and have been posting them to the following sites:

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Wattpad

Medium

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Tablo

Bublish

Upliterate

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They are a collection of 8 short stories, most of them previously featured here on this blog. They are about human emotions, pain, loss, crime, etc… no spookiness, no vampires, no zombies and werewolves.

 

I am planning to compile my horror genre stories and do the same, as well as a little cache of Genesis and Addison stories that have not seen the light of day with the exception of A Walk Amongt the Dead.

 

If you are a member of any of the sites listed above, please look up my stories and like or upvote them! Leave comments! Feed back makes me feeel good.

 

Now, on the a little more distressing news. I’ve hurt my back again. I’m talking taking two Hydrocodone, two Robaxin and two Doans and the pain isnt dulled a bit. I’m also using a TENs unit.

So tomorrow, I am planning on calling the doc for x-rays to see how much damage I did, and I dont even know how I did it. Or, a new painmed prescription.

I also need a new ceiling fan in here in my office because this current one is dying and making a hella lot of noise, and I want to get a quote on how much it would take to get a door installed seperating my office from the living room and dining room area.

Whew. In pain, but gotta be busy.

 

So, until next time my sweets, take care!

 

~squishes~


My summer vacation…

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Well, I know I just sort of disappeared and fell off the Earth.

I AM BACK!! MWAHAHAHAHA!! ~ahems~

 

So, where did I go and what have I been doing?

 

First, I’m sad the Zombie Apocalypse hasn’t happened yet. I’M WAITING!!

 

My moms and pops traveled all the way up here to sunny, hot and humid Southern Alabama from Guatemala to take care of some important things, such as social security, banking, and renewing their retiree military IDs.

While here, my aunt also came into town, along with her hubby and one of my cousins.

 

We all had a great time. Can we say POOL PARTIES!!! And, it was my moms birthday while they were here, so that was another celebration!

 

It was a really great time, and an escape I needed.

 

I also got myself a gym membership! I adore Planet Fitness.

 

With all the fun in the sun however, I managed to get myself a bit of sun poisoning. It wasnt too bad, but annoying nonetheless.

 

My sister also came to visit. We always have a great time when she’s here.

 

My bestie (LP) and I are plotting world domination…I mean planning on her coming to visit me over here on this side of the States. Beware all.

 

I managed to catch a cold somehow, and was miserable for a week. Blah. Still recovering.

 

My furbabies are all doing great. All happy cats.

 

My daughter is doing AWESOME! She found herself the most AWESOMEST JOB EVER!! She is still doing all her normal paralegal stuff, but she works from home, making a buttload of money. She has only been with the Firm about 3 weeks, but they love her, and she has proven to be a perfect fit. Maybe she will look towards actually going to law school beyond her paralegal degree. A mom can hope.

 

So, July marks the starts of another Camp NaNoWriMo, and I’ve set myself at a pretty low word count. Short stories once again, sort of like dipping my toes into the waters once again.

 

I have been sharing some of my ~ahem~ smut stories with a fellow writer friend in my local area. She shared some of hers with me as well. She likes what I’ve got and wants to see more, so that is motivating me quite a bit to publish some of the 13 erotica novels I have, after getting them edited and getting cover designs. My erotica collection will be E-Book only.

 

November I plan to get back to my roots on the original task of finishing up the continuation of my first published novel. It seems intimidating right now. GRAH.

 

In my gaming and role play world, I have gone back to my original game, sort of testing the waters there to bring my character back into society once again. And in the other, well, today, actually, I had planned on bringing those characters out of their self-imposed exiles. So, writing will be had, and maybe even a character death. GASP!

 

How have you all been?? Send me comments, email, what have you…I know its only the 1st of July, but how has everyone been??

 

Oh, yeah…my broken foot is finally healed…I think…haha. I mean, I havent done anything to break it further. YAY!

 

The kids

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Also, let me give a shout out to Patricia, who once again has lifted my spirits by sending me a little care package of loot! LOVE ALL THE STUFF! <3


A Gaming Rant…

To the Owners, Admins, Mods, and Players of some of the games I play…

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Maybe a little harsh, I know. I mean, I honestly only am down to playing two games, and one I havent touched in ages. So that leaves one. >_>

 

In all my years of RP gaming I have found that they are allll alike. I’ve played plenty. Most all of them are still around, sucking in ‘new blood’ players to torment and make all as jaded as everyone else. The thing is, they are doing it on an Out of Character level. Its very disheartening. And disgusting. Cruel.

 

So, the current game I am playing, my characters crew is totally lacking in any leadership. No one is doing anything. I’ve been RPing with anyone I can to keep interest in the crew my characters are in.

 

So, my character made a mistake last week. I’ve been working my ass off, it was an oversight on my part in relation to the crew, and someone else paid the price. However, the way Admin, Owners and everyone else cheats in this game to suit their needs, I dont see why it cant be fixed. NNnnnOOO….I totally got reamed by my characters absentee leader for it. It should have been handled better. There was no need to get crude with me, or my character. I am still scratching my head on who he was talking to me as…In Character or Out of Character. Regardless, I went on the defensive, while still owning up to my mistake.

 

Again, this little mishap can be fixed.

 

I swear people in these RP games just want to belittle people and make them feel insignificant. I have had both of my character in that crew working hard, earning to the crew, and writing.

 

So I’ve pretty much decided that I am going to give that game up. I just have to figure out how to get my cash back on things I’ve bought with real money.

 

I started thinking about going back to the old game. I logged into my messenger for the character and was not enthuastic at all. I still havent even logged into my character, or the RP forum.

 

I should probably give up this sort of online gaming completely. I loved it because it allowed me to write new stories any time I wanted to, evolving my character and whatnot. But the crossing between the in character and out of character is just too large in these games.

 

I dont know what I’ll do without the outlet though. I have a very specific sort of RP gaming that I like. I’ve tried other sorts, but have only found a few that suit me.

 

Blah.

 

People. They ruin everything.

 


Easier said than done…

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I have never made it a secret that I self harm.

 

Today was/is one of those days. The deed is done, however.

 

They always tell you to reach out and call/talk to someone before you do it. Just likr with NA or AA or anything of that nature. Talk to someone, tell them what you are feeling, tell them what is going on in your head and hopefully they can ‘talk you done’ so to speak.

 

I have never been able to do that. NEVER. I self mutilation is my burden, and I dont wish to share it with anyone until after the fact.

 

Today I went to for place that devates from my norm, which is my arms. Today I went for my leg. A good two inch line above the knee. It is haphazard, but I dont think it needs stitches.

 

There are many things that brought it on. And I thought about it all morning, having my coffee, playing with my ‘tool of choice’.

 

In all that time, I could have called my friends, talked to my kid, called my mom. I never do it. I wait until all is quiet and do my dirty little deed, and then somehow I feel better.

 

And then I can talk about it. Well, not really the reason, but I can say, ‘Hey, I self harmed today…’.

 

So, if you know someone who is like this, or have some advice, or even an idea or two, toss them my way, or, encourage someone you know that self harms not to be like me.

 


Writewritewrite

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Camp NaNo…I’m writing, honest I am. I have other plans too.

 

Yanno what? NOTHING is coming to pass as it should be. ~cries~

 

Last week I had gone to my doctor for allergies. Well, that didnt bode well, as it all turned into a ginormous chest cold. So, I went back yersterday and am on so many codiene and codience related products, I can barely think straight.  A Spiriva. I havent been on that since I had come out of that coma a few years ago.

 

And I was supposed to have lunch with my friend Stephanie yesterday. We have had to rearrange this lunch date several times now. I really miss her face. ~WAILS~

 

So, I know I promised you all stories during Camp NaNo. I’ll try to make these something decent and coherent sounding.

 

Send me healthy vibes!!!! I TOTALLY hate being sick.

 

~wears a hazmat suit to cuddle and squish you all~

 


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