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RP Writing vs Novel Writing

10850191_802379633162330_1548996798144738056_nThere is a huge difference between writing for Role-play gaming and writing a novel. I love both equally. I love gaming, and I have a head full of ideas, stories, possible characters, etc..

With RP writing, you lose a bit of control. You are not writing alone. It could be a joint venture with one person or a group. You control your own characters thoughts, emotions and words, but you don’t know what to expect from the next person to post to the story-line. You also cant take actions or thoughts for their characters. Your character doesn’t know how they will respond or react. Your character doesn’t know what the other character is thinking.

You’re flying by the seat of your pants. I love it. Of course, the problem in RP writing is finding compatible partners. Its no fun, and rather irritating, when you spend time writing a good post for a thread, with good character development, actions, scene…and they return a response of only three sentences. Or taking control of everything. God-Modding. Power-playing.

It can drive you mad. There is chaos.

When your writing your own story, be it a novel or short story, you are in control of everything. And while your characters don’t know how each will respond and react to another, or their thoughts, you control the rhythm and flow of the story. You are in control. You control the plot twists, the dialogue, the surprises. Its calming to just sit and write out whats in your head, getting it all down and letting it evolve how YOU imagine.

I find thrill in RP game writing. I tend to find writing partners that are active, so posting to the story is rapid fire. You have to think fast. I avoid planned stories for the most part. I just don’t find planning step by step to be fun. I don’t mind an idea or brief outline of what direction we’d like to see happen, but for the most part I love the surprise of responses unknown, giving me a kick in the pants to spark that imagination.

Novel and story writing is at your leisure, well, unless your on a deadline, but you are still in control. You set the pace.

I’ll never give up my RP gaming writing, even when people, the players behind the character, can drive me up a wall and make me want to gouge my eyes out. Its all part of the package.

And I’ll always be working on other stories in the meantime. I have way too much time on my hands and more than an abundance of story ideas.

Dec 17, 2014: Last nights meltdown


Yeah, so. Yesterdays good mood was completely obliterated by a ‘friend’. Still a little sore about all that.

Its the reason I hate being such a sensitive person. I’ve known most of the people on my private Facebook account for YEARS, having met them through gaming and such. To have someone poke at me like they did just really set me off.

I went and got all emo. If you read the rant, you were probably thinking ‘what the…?’.

I keep a private Facebook, under a different screen name. It’s my gaming Facebook. Like I said, I’ve known those people over 12 years or more. To be dissed upon by one of them really got to me.

HOWEVER…today is a new day. I’m going to just shove it all down and move on. I wont let it bring me down any further.

I have no one to blame but myself. And I apologize to you, my readers, for my emo, whiney meltdown, for something you were totally oblivious to as it stemmed from someplace you don’t have access to and are able to see what sparked it all.

I lost sight of my professionalism. Oh, come on, who are we kidding…I have a hard time grasping the whole ‘be professional’ thing. I am who I am.

I’ll behave…I promise. Okay, that’s a lie.



Dec 16, 2014 ver 2.0: Disappointment


Disappointment stings like an open wound. Like, those horrid little cuts you don’t realize you have until you squeeze a lemon or pick up a jalapeno. A burning sting.

And I’m the sort of person who doesn’t take disappointment well. I set my hopes too high and put too much faith in people, friends. I am usually always disappointed. Let down.

It festers in me, making it worse. It irritates me, because the current situation, in the role reversal, I was a ‘rah-rah-rah’ cheer-leading ‘go get e’m tiger’ support buddy. I contributed to your wealth and invested in your product.

And you nitpick mine? Instead of words of encouragement and motivation, I receive a more negative tone, making me feel very small, less, insignificant and utterly wrong. My approach is wrong? I should do as others you know did? Why? Did I tell you how to do things? Did I pick apart things and show you the flaws?

I guess I’m on my own. I’m very used to it, trust me. I will continue on in my endeavors without anyone’s help or support. If I fail, it will be my failure. More disappointment.

I let one single person get to me. But really, it wasnt just one single person. It was several who I had faith in. It just took one person to voice something.

This thing called ‘friendship’ has such a flawed design.

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